11:11

hmm.. well, im still in my house.. with nothing to do. i guess ill be starting school sooner or later lol.
but i still keep in touch withh me number ones! bianca, brianna, angela, kelsey, dana, shay, jerome, + more, i love yuu guyss :]
and miss yuu.
i couldnt ask for better friends man. true ones. that i can always trustt.
now im starting to think through that word. trust. that yu cant expect to have trust in someone else if they cant trust yu. and also the friends yu can so called really trust. cause yur number 1 untrustworthy person can be sittin in yur face and yu wont even know... until one day.
but its ok.
forgive and forget. pray about it and for them.
and never look that way again :]

anywhoooo,,
ahhhh man.
iv had so much time to think, its getting annoying. lol

my self for one.
i love my self. but i have so mny problems. the type i wish i could control better. the type that hurt ppl :[
but im gunna just pray.

...be happy, please. no matter whose doing it. thats all i want. get over everything i did. and forget me.
i cant believe the way i made yu feel. it hurt so bad i cried. i cry...
not tears of yu hurting me.
but of me hurting yu.
i never wanted yu to feel pain caused by me.
i hoped and prayed i never did it. and i did. seeing yu sad always weakened me. but knowing that i caused it kills me. "everything happens for a reason.." but this is something i wish i could rewind time on.

11:11 i wish for yu, i do.
not for yu to be mine, but for yu to oneday see what i saw.
and to realize that it was really something i couldnt explain.
maybe one day.

Inevitably.

soo i havent really blogged.
but heyy,,, i think its about time. *sighhhh.

i moved. finally. HUGEEE house. its beautiful.
my last day at my house wasnt really all i expected. i only said bye to dana; shay; and bryan.
by choice.
because... well, idk.
i guess some things are harder than you thinkkk.

...
goodbye travis.

a very GOOD bye. i couldnt be happier to get outta that placee.
so muchh drama. so little time.
i hated it.

but i will always have those who are true to me :]
bianca of course :]
kelseyy,, yessirrrr.

its like i can only trust so many people.
i cant believe i gotta let go of some. just because they betrayed me sooo badlyyy. and i gave them trust??
oh well.

now im just trying to find myself. no more drama. no more nothin. only associate with a few.. or 2.
andd... well, be a better person. because iv come to realize soo much. my life that i was living was soooo wrong. in many waysss. full of deceit and lies. and bad grades.
it took me losing something SO important to me to realize that. i never knew the impact i could have on someone. i never knew that I could be the one to hurt a heart. but i never wanted to be. ever.
so sensitive, and so fragile... and yet i can be a destroyer.
we all make mistakes. some more than others. and sometimes it takes one time.. out of a million, to realize what yur doing and where yur going.
so now, i find myself. my better self. nd i move to be a great person.
and hopefully.
those will forgive.

Novenber 30, 2008

One of the most important dates in my life :)
its kind of suckish that i can talk about this, being that im only 16 lol, but oh well...
I sneak out one night.. usual shit. just a few days after Thanksgiving.
off to Torrence's. my spot. lol.
we weren't dating at the time, but still really close and talking.
(:
but anywhoooo.;
so i go over thee, and he slides my in the house. we're just messing around and being stupid.
then we kiss.
then we make out.
then we're in the bed.
lol.

ughhhhh, my v-card still stashed in my back pocket. i had no idea it was about to get maxed out, lol

i'm laying there, thinking its gunna be like every other time i come over. just 2nd basee. haaha.
ohhhhhh nooooo.
he takes it out.
it goes in... FINALLY!
lmao.
it hurt. the most excruciating pain ever.
i couldn't believe it. shock ran down my body, simply because i never saw the day coming.
such adrenaline, omg. but the pain.. brought pleasure. so much pleasure. :)
i fckn loved it.
i kinda cried.. haaha, dont judge me.
but it was amazing, nevertheless.
ahhhhhh.

then we go again.. and again. lol
each time it just gets better.
a few hours later, we're done. and i call my best friend, bianca. lol

Bianca: Hello?
Alexa: Omg guess what?
Bianca: *giggles, what???
Alexa: I just had sex !!
Bianca: OMG SERIOUSLYYYY?
Alexa: lol yesssssss.

blahh blahh blah girl talk, lol.

the night ends with a kiss, and me going home. i got my ass beat that morning for leaving lol, but it was all worth itt (:
November 30th, ill never forget that day.

The blue effect ;)

HeeHee;; picturess :).. i took.















the endd :]

Always be my baby

im in this stage of my lifee, where im obsessed with this fckn song omg !!
lol,, seriouslyy. it has to be my favorite song... iv never had one haahaha.
and the video is beautiful.

Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey

My desperate attempt at it..

9/5/09

yoooooooooooo.
iv had like this MAJOR writers block omg... lol
i missed you blogspott!
well... so much has happened mannn.
i started school, at weak ass travis.
but not for longggggg, cause im moving!!! =]
lol. to katy, cyfair?
uhhh.. idk to be honestt?
lol, but yeaaa.. on the 28thh.. that is the dayyyy. im gunna miss everybodyy :/


and you know whats funny? samantha IS going to travis! like wtf??
ughhh.
long storyy.
im sickk rite now thoughh. i been thinking that swine is passing through our house lol.
nahhhh...
but anywhooo;; i got a new carrrrrrr.!
escalade.
(dad's choice)
lol, its pretty nicee, i mean idrc. not materialistic like these moronss. lmao.
i miss myy babyy! daniel. i love youuu.<3 duhh mann. haahaha.
welll, im kinda busy... well im not, i just dont feel like typing a fckn movie, so ill be back laterr. PROMISE :) lol

A song for mamaa.

omfg mann.. this song had me crying, forreal :(
its so oldd, by boyz 2 men. one of the best groups everr.

A Song For Mama - Boyz II Men

sweaters andd peanutbutter:]

omg mannn..
i dont feel good.
i got the the chills and shit lol.
today, uhmmm... SAM CAME BYYYYYYY :)
and she brought me somethingggg..
a sweater.
well a hoodie.
that she stole.
from Aeropostale.
just for meeee =].
lmao.

beassssssst man., i fckn lovee her.

and in exchange,, i gave her a jar of peanutbutter.
that i bought.
well my mom bought.
from kroger.
it was JIF =]
just for herrrr :)
lol.

we are terrible children,, lol.

Sam, I Am.

lmfao,, im on the phonee with samantha.
and we're talkingg.
about her previous status arguement, which contained her, me, chris, and her dyingg-ass ex Ramaddan "bitchmeal morroc-gay." haaha. ahhhhhhh.
and then talked about chris.
and my bitchass dad.
and everythingg stupid in the worldd :]

then she tells me her and chris had a rap battle....
haahaha.
*funny thoughts.
so here it goess..

Chris: battle me punkk.
Sam: ... okay.
Chris: alright.. you go first.
Sam: ok.
Chris: GO!
Sam: i cant i'm nervous.
Chris: just go mannnnn.
Sam: *clears throat. "My name is Sam, I like to eat ham, when i walk down the street all the boys go DAMNNNN.

Alexa: (hysterical laughter)

SMH, i love these people.

Tupac// Drakee, Ahhhhh;

uhhh, well, i was on the phonee wiff my bestie brandon =) when he tells me that he saw the autopsy of tupac.. like the picture of his dead body on the table. so i google it... and OMG,, it was sooo real and disgusting :/ ughhh.. and i have a sensitive stomach sooo.. that really suckedd for me :( i would provide the picturee but;; i really dont think its appropriate. youu can look it up yurselff.

well thats the tupac side of this.....


the drake side.. omfg =( this guyy falls. and it wasnt just any fall.. it was a banana peel, slip and bust yur ass fall. fckn ridiculous. like everyone knows that he tore his ACL or whatever, and thats a really bad injuryy.. but he goes off and performs anywayy!!!
ughhhh.
and lil waynee is just an asshole, lol. listen to him in the end.


SMH,, damn drakee. lol

Apples && Nuts :) lol

heeheehe...
last night, well this morning; was soooooooooooo un fuckn real.. haaha.
i got one thing to say...
me+daniel=BEASTmode.
lol.
Ahhhhhhhh.. how funn was that. a night filled with alot of apples, and a whole lot of nuts. lmfao

Calm, cool and collected.

those are three thingss i most certaintly am not.


yesterday.. i talked to daniel :) damn near my entiree day.
it was kinda like there was no outside world.. it was just me and him,, lol.
i mean there was one i just wasnt paying attention.
Ahhhh;; we fought like we were in a fckn drama series! like we just kept fighting.. one after the other.
and me and him are both just consistent shit-talkers.. (so you can only imagine the content within these arguments)
lol
ilovehim sooooooooooooo much man.
you know that babee (:
but that friend of yurss... now thats a different story....

since i know hes reading this, i could continue this blog talking all types of shit about him.
but being that i was requested not too.. i wont say anythinggg... remember.. "dont caree.. its not worth it."
yesss.. i listen :o]

ohhhhh, daniel ndd his stories. like the one that really had me crackin up, is when some white kid in his church said "fuck obama.." so being the black person that daniel is.. he naturally gets up out of no where and smacks the shit out of him. it just looks so fckd up in my mindd lol. *true storrry. OH,, and the bitchh with the pussy that looked like a chicken sandwich. haahaaaha ohhh shit. priceless.

and samantha! shes not leavinggg.. yet. ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i am so fckn happy. i cant wait to see her, whenever that is; lol.
but yeahh anyways, since everything has been going pretty great, im endingg this hoe on a good note. byeeeeeeeeee:]

Videoooo blog.. kinda? lol

well the other videoo kinda got deleted, haaha. but i havee this one too, wiff daniel; yeeee =]

Fckk marty.

OMFG.!
samanthas leavingg.
ugh.
fucked up day.
FML.
FHL.
FOL.
:(
i love you sam.

In the shower... ?

in the fck'n shower.
i thought, and thought. no distractions, just the shower. i'm in there, and i'm thinking. when i finally come to a conclusion.. that just makes so much sense. i'm sitting here waiting for the "right time" and doing whatever i can to be "different".. when the answer to all my questions is right there!
trying something different, can mean.. a little change;; or BIG change. and in this case, i need to make a huge change. i seriouslyy dont wanna fckn do this. just thinking about it made me cryy.. but, it makes sence! its different! wayyyyyy different! he deserves it. we both do. so despite this, ill always be there. you know that. and ill ALWAYS love you the same.. Time cant erase a feeling this strong.

Samantha Corrine Hicks :)

Ahhhhhh (: here she is.... and her one eye. lol.
my BEST fckn friend.
I'v blogged about her a little beforee, but now i feel she deserves her own WHOLE blog, lol.
dangg man, i love this girl, to death. like wow. and you know what?? i feel so damn special, because sam doesnt even LIKE people!! so to be considered her best friend just makes me feel like an amazing ass person! lol. soooooo.. where so i start.? i dont really have to say much, cause our friendship explains it all.. but i want to. just sooo all you guys can know what a true friend is. 8] okayy;
*clears throat.
samantha, most girls/boys are intimidated by her? i would be too though. shes fckn swole for one thing, so theres your first impression when you see her. and then she's a MAJOR shit talker.. who backs it up. she may say she doesnt talk shit, but shes a fckn liar, i hear it constantly. lol. So DO NOT GET BOLD and charge her up, its not worth it :]
she's on that "do anything it takes" type shit, lol.
she stolee a ladder for me once.... long story. she's stayed with me throughout all my dumbass decisions, and vice versa. I mean wow, we're so alike!
really man, ill be thinking of a smartass comment, and she'll have already said it.! haaha. we're fckn crazy mann. like not normal. lol;; but we understand eachother, soooo well. nobody else can understand why i do the things i do :/ even if i'm soo wrong, she'll ALWAYS be on my side.
iloveyousamantha (:

ATL, haaha.

This is my favorite scene from ATL, trying to determine whose more country lmao.

Teeenage love affair.

I love this quote in the song. The best thing i've ever heard :)
"Want you to be my first, my last, my ending and beginning..i wrote your name in my book, your last name my first, I'm your mrs.."

That thong song. lmfao.

ahaaha, i was looking at videos, and i found this. like wtf?
this just about killed me. haahaha.


Thong Song - Sisqo

but he did that incomplete song, like i really like that one. lol

The right timee.

ughh.
this couldn't be any worse.
i gotta sit here and wait for the "right time" ...which is undoubtably driving me crazy.
but its worth the wait. thats what i realized. so ill do it even if it kills me.

ughh.
countless fuck ups. different people. well.. thats alexa for ya.

ughh.
"prince-less" i am, but dont mind the anger and sarcasm in that other blog. i love that boy like crazy. no jokee. just me being bitchy again.

ughh.
im movingg, idk when.. but soon soon soon. i cant even imagine it actually. i can imagine not attending travis though. thats more of a dream. lol. just not leavingg the ppl i grew so close to that live around the corner from me :) mmmmhm.

ughh.
and around the corner brings "you" up.
i sooooo miss you. i wish you knew. i wish i knew. i said i didnt want it anymore, but you and god knows i dooooo. :(
but hey, itll soon come out.. just wait. well.. ill just wait, till the "right time." and when that time does come, i truly hope its right, and im doing the right thing.

ughh.

Try something different.

this is somethingg someone toldd me.
someone that has really had alot of influence over me.

"Try something different, cause obviously what you've been doing isn't working."

yepp.. thats exactlyy what i'll do... i'll try somethig different.

Christopher agboola.

LOL LOL.
this nigga chriss.. omg.
haaha, i have known him since SEVENTH gradee.
i used to dislikee him, cause i thought he was a player. lol
but mannn.. as the years went by..
i grew to freakin love this guyy!
like seriouslyy.
he's sooo funny man. just his stupid actions and retarded ass phrases is what gets me lol.
but hes so damn real and up front with everything. like if he's gunna talk shit;
he's gunna go all out with it, haaha. and he doesnt gaf about what anybody thinks.
and hes a fckn blog expert! lol, he's sooo my inspiration. haaha.

hes IN LOVE with my best, samanthaa. and most defffff vice versa.
he calls her a dumbass girl,
she calls him a stupid ass bitch,
and they continue to cake all night long. lmao.
i love them geeeeeez.
i hope they get married :]
haaha.
fckn phsycos. lol.
iloveyouchrisssss :)

Prince-less// P.O.

last night, arount 2.. i talked to daniel.
we break up.
Happy- because, he wasnt really all that i wanted. andd it was the right thing to do.
Sad- because HE cheated !! but i did too.. guess theres no hard feelinggs, haaha. whatever.
anywhooo.. im finee, never the less.
i caught feelings for him fast
like seriously.
but its okkkk.
i cant really be mad at a cheaterr.. beause i understand where their comingg from. iv cheated. numerous times.
on numerous occasions.
but i knoww i can control myself when im really actually IN LOVE with someonee. causee if thats the case.. fuckk cheating!
iv got the best bf in the fuckn worldd, why cheat??
which is why, iv cheated on almost all my bf's.
ALMOST.
simplyy because they dont make me feel like that. only a handful have.

but anyway,, i saw my probation guy today.
omg...

i feel so new. i feel like evrytingg iv been doing has been wrong this whole time :[ and it hass. from my decisions, to my behavior, to my actions, to EVERYTHING. most of the timee when those damn officers talk to me, im thinking... "what time is it???"
but this guy, madee me think. about what iv been doing. and my regrets. i feel really bad, but i feel really good. so now, im working on thinkingg before i act. act before i speakk. and making smart decisions. cause i am hella smart mann. i just fckn lazy, and childish :/
i wanna get outta this stage soo bad. andd hopefully i will, and everybody i let down, will be there with me in the end :)
thankss guyys. iloveyou all. just forr putting me through what i get through. i appreciate it.

"Random"- Brianna.

well, i wrote this becausee i couldnt send you a message, soo yeaa..

Ahh, well.. idkkk youu. and you dont know meee.
but, i did do some hoe stuff to yur page a while agoo, yes.. i did that.
and i really do sincerely apologize.
youu dont have to accept it or anythingg, but i thought it wouldd be the right thing to do.
honestly, im a childishh ass teenager.
im not gunna liee.. and i do things, that ppl ask whyy i do, and personally, i dont even knoww?
that was VERY immature of mee.. andd it really wsnt right.
but i can onlyy hope everythingg turns out ok.
and i also wanna apologize forr anythingg i did that may have fckd with you and torrence. he does really love you, and im happy for him. like foreal.
so yeaa.. thanks forr your time, thats all i could really askk for. see ya.

and sorry torrence, it probably doens mean anythingg now. but its worth it.

Last night.

haaha, ohh shit. last night was somethin elsee.
wellllllllllllll .. i got home around.. like 11 or something, and sambam comes overr. so we're talkingg, im telling her whats been going on and vice versa.
so thennnn ... i find out shes meeting her boyfrann (chris] at my house.
i'm likee okay.
so im givingg him directions, and hes like, ohh yeah, i'm bringing ramsey.
.....
lol.
anywhoo.. a few hours later, they come, driving like maniacs. and we're just fckn around being stupid lol.
ramsey runs over samanthas shoe and shit. haaha. but yeaaa.. then we drive to the park.. and we all get out and start walking twards it, and all of a sudden, i see these two niggas burn off.. like full speed!
me and samantha were like ohh hell nahh.. and they get in the car and drive off.
haahaha.
of course they turned around.
lol, so we get backk in, and me and ramsey are talk'n shit, sam and chris are cakin. haahaha.
Ahhhhh,, it was really fun.
but yeaahh.. the nite ended kinda bad :/ but everything'll be okay :)

Some things never changee.

Welll.....
i dont know how to start this blogg off,
so here goess...

iv made huge mistakes in my life, bigger than life mistakes..
but i alwayss just try to say "everything happens for a reason", and leave it alone. but this. this is just fckn ridiculous. i keep going back to somethingg that isnt even worth going back to. a person that does not care about me. no matter how much they say they do. someone who doesnt appreciate anything i do, when all i do is try and be there.
now i just feel so bad, i put something that wasnt even worth it; in front of EVERYTHING. time and time again. but im too stupid to notice that im just wasting both of our time. i guess i just alwayss wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt, and hope that maybe one day, things would change. and you would change. but no, never that. NEVER that.


so as im walkingg, im thinking, and something feels so different. i feel like i can actually get through this, and be better. i feel like i can let you go...
completely.
as a friend, as everything.
which i never feel, i always THINK i do, but this time... just seems so different.
i deserve so much. im an intelligent, sweet, modest, funny, great person. and i know this. and all this time, i was giving you the best of me.. when i know good and well, you dont deserve it. i know im a good friend, and im better off.
so now, im not even madd. im happy. because over the past couple of days, iv realized how you really are. your nothing like i thought you were. so i guess it takes almost a year in a half to really know someone huh?
damn.
that suckks.
unfortunately i loved you, you meant everything and more to me. and i honestly still love you, no doubt at all.
but fortunately, im falling out.. and so are youu.
and thats all i can really askk for.
i wish thingss coulda been better, i wish you didnt have to be this way, but you are. and maybe its just me? idk.
but what i doo know is that, iv been too nice and too forgiving. but this is it.
you alwayss pushed me away, and pushed and pushed and pushed.

well i guess this time i finally just fell.

Rangersss.

Ahhh;; i'm not really the "jerking" typee person,, but i really like this video. If you don't alreadyy know them, they'r the rangers, from cali.. and their like really fck'n good... and cute :) haaha.



haaha, they were chatting live online ndd shit, this is soo stupidd, haaha.





lol, who called me a fag, we're gunna fight.

Haaha, welll..

I SOOO stole this from chris,, but oh well :) i lovee drake haaha,

Drake Perfoming In Detroit W/ Big Sean and Wale from Flying With Da Fishes Blog on Vimeo.

Ohh, and i just discovered me and nicki minaj have the same birthdayy. lol.
hahaaa, bitchh. =]

Sweetheart.

well, its like 5 or 6 in the morningg. haaha. i'm soo bummy.
i malled today :)
lol.
uhmmmmmmmm... ohh, and yesterdayy i saw edward [ex] for the first timee in a whilee.
he gotta fckn lip piercingg and shit. lol. damnn..
i hate to admit it, but he actually looked pretty good.
like flyy, ya know?
but i mean... he ALWAYS does. its like a requirement with him.
fresh pair of shoes; jeans; tee; fitted; jewelry; nicee ass phone.
lol.
but yeaaa.. nice seeing him, i suppose.

but anywhoo; Ahhhhhh :]
today is..my boyfriendss birffdayyyyyyyyy.!
heehe, i MUST give him a shout out,,duhhh lol.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEE. I LOVEE YOU SOO MUCH!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

oh and you knoww what? its alsoo the first dayy we start officially datingg. lol.
we were alreadyy togetherr, but he wantedd our anniversary to be on his birthday. and he wanted me as a birthdayy gift;; heehe. :]
the sweetest sugarrr cookie iv ever had, haaha. he's the best (=

but uhhhh.. this is a picc me and my cool ass sister took. its one of the ones you cant see on myspacee :]
X-CLUSIVEEE-NESS, haaha.



Yeeee;; i got banggggggs yo :D

What an eye openerrr.

todayy was like, ohhso boringg.
Ahhh.

i missedd daniel like every secondd of the dayy.
lol. wow. he's likee..
.....
wow.

So many feelingss,, but just no way to put them in wordss.
its like, theres never a dull moment withh us.
even when we're not talkingg.
and we NEVER fight. well... not really anyway.
its more likee.. he'll say/do somethingg stupid that slighty pisses me off, but not really. lol
and ill catch an attitude, but even then, i'm smiling the wholee time. :)
i can never stay mad at him. its too hardd :/
ughhh.
lol.
gawshhh,, i lovee him so much.
he's like a bottomless pit of sweet words and kind thoughts. (=
and his lovee for me.. couldn't be mistaken. he sayss it every second on the second.
haaha,, but i promise, it never gets old.
my tummy goes up to my throat, then shoots down like a roller coaster, each and every timee =]
he's everythingg to me. though he plays ALOT, and he's a prettyboy, and hoess will never be able to fall back.. i love him SOOOOO freakin' muchh. !!
ughhhh.
this has got to bee unhealthyy ;)
Ahhhhh.

but anywhoooo.
im watchingg the jackson moviee yo.
sooo
seeya.

She's backk.

yooooo.
:]
i FINALLY saw my best friend's bitchass yesterrday (=
haaha, she is no longerr MIA people.
lol.
this bitch snuckk out and knockedd on my window at around 3.. usual time.
lol;; i screamed when i heard the knock..because i knew it was herr.
of course.
who else does shit like that besides me and her haaha.
soo yeaaa. we ran up to eachother and screamed and huugedd :)
(homoness]
ahaaha, to the fullest.
so we discussed whatss been happening throughout our lives these past couple dayss we havent talked.
believe it or not, its been a hella lot !!
haaha.

so later we call her bf chris,, and he didnt answerr :/
so she left an uglyy voice message.
haaha.


i missed herrrrrr.

welll anyways...
hmmmph.
im tiredd so. bye loserss.

So overused.

*clears throat.
well, if you go to travis, or any of the surrounding schools..
you have heard these terms;;

doin too much; doin alot; doin the most; chill; force; relaaaaaax; dyingg; STOP; dickridingg; and the NEWEST addition.. you did that.
lol
[logan)

haaha, and what im doingg right now, some people would probably call "forced"
but idgaf haaha.
its just that..this whole thing is getting really old :/
and noww... sad to say; peoples parents and shit are sayingg this.
SMH.
it hass to stop
lol.

Court. 7/15/09

...
I went to court today.
always a nerve wrecking experience.

so i'm scheduledd to go to the 12:45pm session.
so i gooo.. we get there at 12:50.
of course.
we go into the court room,, and things seem different. some lady's passing
out papers and pens.
....

long story short, i was in the wrong session.
actually i was in the right one, but i had to go to session 2 as wellll.
so im thinkingg WTF?! as im sitting in the front row of session 2.
session 1 just got let off with a warning and shit.
:/
but noooo, not me..never that.
iv been to court, in that SAME position, 1 too many times.
soo..im shaking like a fckn crazy person, KNOWING im going to jail lol.
but, i get everythingg dismissed in the end :]
ughh. i hate that cold ass room.
lol.


but anywayss, that was that.
i had never wanted to go homee so badly.
I hate fort bend.


Ohhh, andd HUGE shout out to myy buddo torrence :]
heehe;;

Ahhhhhh !

Fml mannn, to the fullest :[
i have court tomorrow.
ughhhh jhgedfeiywuydyeuwod!
wonder how thats gunna gooo....

but yeaa soo..
I'm textingg my boyfriend..well trying to, and instead of him, its his friend talkingg sht. his name....
dominican.
DOMINICAN!
need i remindd you that is an ethnicity???

smh.
anywhooo..hes pissin me off, talkin about "dont text me."
i meannn....this isnt your fckn phone sooo...i dont think you have that control nor the rite to tell me whether or not to text it!
lol, ughhh. but daniel hops on the phonee.. i bitch a little, and then we make up. lol,, thats why i lovee you babe :] lol.

......
andd now, i'm havingg mixed emotions on some things. i lost an important person in my life [by choice) .. but also by mistakee. not saying this person wasnt at fault, but stilll... it doesnt really fckn matter.
when you care for/love someone, who gives a damn the reason whyy your fighting? rite?
well, idc about your opinion, lol. but i hope everything workss out;; i really do.
i doubt it will.
but, uhhh... 's worth a shot?

but ohh yeaaa, i just watched this movie called WANTED...
Ahhh!
what a good ass movie! its a few years old.. go google it :) like fareaaaaaal.
its with some whitee guy (main character] && angelina jolie. you know it has to be good, she refuses to make bad movies lol.

so yeaaaa, i'm signing off (gay]
=]

Random Much?

Damnn, i'm tiredd.
and boredd :D
soooo, im gonna show off the things i like;love. [=



Andd on the top of the list;; the greatest movie of all timee. heehe. my favorite movie in the world, honestly. ill pickk this over ANYTHING!
toy story 1&&2 (=



I fck'n LOVE strawberry cheesecake from the bottom of my heart. lol, fuckk
the ones who say its nastyy. :P



--Degrassi. such a good showw. filled withh soo much white drama...and your occasional black person :]
lol, *andd no, i dont just like it because of drake..its really a good show :)




-Veronica mars. the BEST show iv ever seen in my life !! byy farr.. if you havent seen it, go watch it now. pleaseee. lol.




Andd iv saved the best for lastt...TOASTER STRUDEL. !!
i buyy 8 of these things EVERY SINGLE TIME i go to the store. like literally, no jokee. whenever i find someone who hasnt tried it..i ALWAYS give them one. lol. i dont knoww how id makee it without these thingss. and if you know me, you know exactly what i mean. haaha (=

Gotta give my propss.

Fuckkk.
its 3 pm.
i just wokee up.
i'm sick.

but whatever, i still wanna fck'n blog.
haaha.
yesterdayy i was on myspace, and i was bored beyondd belief.
so i start blogging, then i stumble upon another fellow blogger.
chris agboola.
but hes more of a fckn "veteran" at this, considering the fact that he has like 384986735789347057 bloggs already, haaha.
but anyway.. i read his blogg "jerking in texas", and i can honestly say..it had me rollin !!
like seriously. iv never been so amused. haaha. (no dickriding AT ALL] ..
the shit was just funny.
lol. ahhhhhh... so right now, i am soooo about to advertise his shit. lol.

christhecreator.blogspot.com

heehe.
ily;; and your welcomeee chris :)
but on another note..
well there is no other note.
lol, i'm still bored as hell, and sick as hell.
sooo... bye lol.

**shoutss out to samm, the bestiee (=

Michael Jacksonn, late but whatever. lol

The greatest artist to ever livee.
EVERR !!

i couldnt believe it when i heard he diedd. actually, the first time i heard it.. i thought it wasnt truee... and it was just some more fake ass TMZ bullshit.
lol.
but then when it came to be that it was ...
wow.
dot dot dot.
thats it :(

a one of a kind artist, and person..gone.
iv been listening to him since i was a babyy.
thankss to my dad. who constantlyy playedd him.. so of course i fell in love.
smooth criminal. my favorite michael jackson song :)
Ahhhhhh, and its funny how every one wantedd to jam him soon as they heard the tragedy. but whatever..it doesnt matter.

but he really shouldve been more appreciated when he was withh us... "Now maybe they'll leave you alone."

and as for those people..
i mean..everyone has a right to their opinion, but yall just talk a bunch of shit.
ughh.
and one thing i can sayy, is that if you didnt respect him as a human being, than you could have at LEAST respected his music.
R.I.P,, you will be missed♥

[Prince) charmingg. <3

sooo.. theres this guyyy.. if youv been on my myspace, then you can conclude that hes mine ;)
woooow.
i care not to sayy the typical things, every one else would sayy... so ill say this;;
I love him.
happened fast, but couldnt have happened better.
he means the world to me.
i wont let him goo.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hes the best.
yuhhhh, he's a smokerr.. but im training him to stop lol.
yuhhh, hes a pretty boy.. but im his, so F U C K off :]
everything i could ever want-all in a single human being.
ily.<3
my princee charming.

Weirdd Alll ;; Family guyy :o)

I'm superr bored. but this...
stupid as hell; haaha.

Tardyy.

uhhh, welll..if you havent noticed, im not too much of a fckn blogger. lol
but im gunna get moree into it.
causee it seems like its always a bunch of shit going on ...and it
helps to have a place to write about it.
besides a diary.
but i'm not 6 sooo...
lol
anywayss.
ughhhh.
i miss samantha mannnn.
like a bunch :[
she hasnt snuckk out to come see me in like 2 or 3 dayys lol.
but she has alot on her plate rite now.. so i cant be upset.

1 of those things being chris agboola.
and if you know him..you know how much of a handful that shit is.
haaha;; their so cute. i envy their relationship. though
its full of constant bickering..its so cute<3 true love at its best. =)

and speaking of the devil; before i go..sam, i just wanted to say: that blogg "ex girl", SOOOOOOOO fckn homo ! damn, at least you called it.
lol
byess. :]

Rogerss. (=

Yeee so, im doingg better.
much better.
hints the smile in my title...lol.
just takin it dayy by dayy.

mhmmmmmmm...

Aubrey Drake Graham.
three words that equal perfectionnn. Random? yea, soo? (:
ahaaa,
omg, i lovee drake mann.
Oh, and beforee i continuee..fuckk you guys that say im
"dickriding"..
causee i most certaintly am about too., lol.

Anyyyyways, Drake.
ahhhhhhhh...what can i sayy?
he's ahhh-mazing. :]
andd its not just because he's super freakinn cutee..

he's a sickkass rapper; a sexxy ass singer;
and not to mention, he was a BEAST in degrassi.
haaha.
ohhhyaaaah.
doesnt get any better.

welll, im boredd of this..
tatahh.

:(

my first blogg :)
unfortunately im not really happy...
my life is; very unremarkable rite now.
*sighh.
why so hard?
i cant even begin to xplain.

for starters, R.I.P grandad.
ughh....
i never thought id have to put those letters in front of his name :(
i miss him. so soooo much. and iv tried so hard to find a shoulder...a good one.
just to cryy...i dont need them to sayy anything, or give me any advice.
just sit there, and let me do what i need to do.
>:[
but thanksss, to the ones i love, who gave me a "cyber" shoulder :]
Samantha Hicks, Bianca Galang. I LOVE YOU SO MUCHH<3
but yeaaa..
geez, im sorry this happened.
and iv been kinda off the edge lately. crying..laughing, yelling..cracking jokes?
bi-polar type shit.
sorry to who i may have pissed off.
:[..you know who you aree..

welll...i gotta go. i guess, until my next blogg.
byesss .