last night, arount 2.. i talked to daniel.
we break up.
Happy- because, he wasnt really all that i wanted. andd it was the right thing to do.
Sad- because HE cheated !! but i did too.. guess theres no hard feelinggs, haaha. whatever.
anywhooo.. im finee, never the less.
i caught feelings for him fast
like seriously.
but its okkkk.
i cant really be mad at a cheaterr.. beause i understand where their comingg from. iv cheated. numerous times.
on numerous occasions.
but i knoww i can control myself when im really actually IN LOVE with someonee. causee if thats the case.. fuckk cheating!
iv got the best bf in the fuckn worldd, why cheat??
which is why, iv cheated on almost all my bf's.
ALMOST.
simplyy because they dont make me feel like that. only a handful have.
but anyway,, i saw my probation guy today.
omg...
i feel so new. i feel like evrytingg iv been doing has been wrong this whole time :[ and it hass. from my decisions, to my behavior, to my actions, to EVERYTHING. most of the timee when those damn officers talk to me, im thinking... "what time is it???"
but this guy, madee me think. about what iv been doing. and my regrets. i feel really bad, but i feel really good. so now, im working on thinkingg before i act. act before i speakk. and making smart decisions. cause i am hella smart mann. i just fckn lazy, and childish :/
i wanna get outta this stage soo bad. andd hopefully i will, and everybody i let down, will be there with me in the end :)
thankss guyys. iloveyou all. just forr putting me through what i get through. i appreciate it.
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