11:11

hmm.. well, im still in my house.. with nothing to do. i guess ill be starting school sooner or later lol.
but i still keep in touch withh me number ones! bianca, brianna, angela, kelsey, dana, shay, jerome, + more, i love yuu guyss :]
and miss yuu.
i couldnt ask for better friends man. true ones. that i can always trustt.
now im starting to think through that word. trust. that yu cant expect to have trust in someone else if they cant trust yu. and also the friends yu can so called really trust. cause yur number 1 untrustworthy person can be sittin in yur face and yu wont even know... until one day.
but its ok.
forgive and forget. pray about it and for them.
and never look that way again :]

anywhoooo,,
ahhhh man.
iv had so much time to think, its getting annoying. lol

my self for one.
i love my self. but i have so mny problems. the type i wish i could control better. the type that hurt ppl :[
but im gunna just pray.

...be happy, please. no matter whose doing it. thats all i want. get over everything i did. and forget me.
i cant believe the way i made yu feel. it hurt so bad i cried. i cry...
not tears of yu hurting me.
but of me hurting yu.
i never wanted yu to feel pain caused by me.
i hoped and prayed i never did it. and i did. seeing yu sad always weakened me. but knowing that i caused it kills me. "everything happens for a reason.." but this is something i wish i could rewind time on.

11:11 i wish for yu, i do.
not for yu to be mine, but for yu to oneday see what i saw.
and to realize that it was really something i couldnt explain.
maybe one day.